Thanksgiving

I seriously have to write this thanksgiving as I feel guilty after robbing God of quite a number of glories that He has done in my life.

I want to thank God for healing me this week. As on this Thursday of the week, I was unexpectedly struck with diarrhoea, felt nauseous, had an awful headache, and irregular hot and/or cold spells in the middle of my work.

Due to certain complications in my workplace, and financial problems in my family, I couldn’t leave my workplace to take MC and that I don’t even have the means to self-medicate myself; much less see a doctor to take an MC. I know that I could have asked those who were close to me for help, and that they would definitely help me. But I didn’t, as I felt that there isn’t a need to trouble them with more of my problems.

It was at this point of time, where I felt vulnerable. Vulnerable to the attacks of the evil one; lies and thoughts of death that will happen; as I was seriously very weak and that I know that I don’t have any medication to take. That night, I made it home safely, even though I felt like fainting throughout the journey; perhaps from skipping of meals, as I didn’t have any appetite to eat and thought that if I didn’t eat, the diarrhea would go. Which I learnt, isn’t true. All of these got worst in the morning before I reported to work on Friday, but somehow, I believe that it can only be by God’s grace, that I’ve been healed almost instantly by noon.

It is at this point of time that I really want to thank the Lord for sustaining me, even without food, comforting me, even while the devil is attacking me with his lies, healing me, even without the means to visit a doctor, and most importantly, the love that He’s displayed through all of these, even as I’m totally undeserving of it.

God’s Learning Objective for me:

I felt that this experience was in a way beautifully orchestrated by God to once again allow me to reflect on how I’m living my life, even as the devil forces the word DEATH into my hurting head, and at the same time, reminded me to depend on God, and not on my mere strength.

To all my brothers and sisters, I hope that this thanksgiving will in one way bless you with God’s love even as you read of it. =)



Lance